Rethinking

I am seriously not good at delegating jobs to others. I tend to do everything myself. I think I'm overly anxious and fearful to entrust a job to someone else. So I ended up being overloaded?? But maybe I haven't found someone whom I can trust to delegate. But then again, sometimes we just need to give others a chance.

I have questions about my career path again. Do I really want to be a PE HOD? This doesn't seem to be what I want to be after going through this year without our HOD. As much as I want the best for my school PE curriculum, do I have the ability to be the agent of change? How much can I do with those support that I get from my school and colleagues? What about the rest of the many things that comes with the package of being a HOD? Am I dynamic enough? Do I have what it takes? If not, I do not want to waste time pursuing something that I'm not meant to do. Who can give me an answer?

I think I love planning events. Maybe I should join an events company for a change. But I love my kids. I always feel happy when I see them smiling and greeting me. Is there a job in school that I do not have to teach academics, no admin but I just help the school with their events and deal with kids instead of adults?